© 2002 by Murray Sexton

with *NAME WITHHELD BY REQUEST*

• CuteBiGuy: hey
• Columbia87: hey
• CuteBiGuy: i'm not for you
• Columbia87: Why's that?
• CuteBiGuy: i just wanted to tell you.....
• CuteBiGuy: that i totally loved your webpage
• CuteBiGuy: the best i've ever seen
• Columbia87: Thank you very very much -
• Columbia87: Oh jeez - that's quite a compliment.
• CuteBiGuy: no, seriously
• Columbia87: Why are you not for me?
• CuteBiGuy: read it all....great heart, energy etc
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• Columbia87: You're a 400# sumo wrestler with an IQ of 6?
• CuteBiGuy: told you...i read it all
• CuteBiGuy: bi-married
• Columbia87: Did you read the Tinman story?
• CuteBiGuy: nope
• CuteBiGuy: ok...maybe i didn't read it ALL
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• Columbia87: The guy in the next pvt said he's halfway through, and he's weeping
• Columbia87: Do you have a pic, cutebiguy?
• CuteBiGuy: nah...."I'm not out and my wife would freak"
• CuteBiGuy: the worst case example fits
• Columbia87: I was just hoping to get a sense of my admirer
• CuteBiGuy: but i was a 0 at www.straight-acting.com
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• CuteBiGuy: only a pic of my tushie at www.facelink.com/zzzguy
• Columbia87: I don't think I mentioned it in the homepage, but the thing that gets me going better than almost anything is being adored
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• Columbia87: (but don't tell that to Brad Pitt, just in case, ok?)
• CuteBiGuy: well...i would love to meet you...mr. smart and sexy
• Columbia87: Sweet ass, zzz
• CuteBiGuy: but i am respectful of all the effort you put into being  honest
• CuteBiGuy: and i am just as honest
• CuteBiGuy: but cannot offer you much more than friendship and sex
• CuteBiGuy: i'm an anal virgin....whenever i chatted with a "top" (hate the concept of sex roles)....
• Columbia87: yes?
• CuteBiGuy: they'd always ask what my ass looked like...so i put it up
• CuteBiGuy: but i've never been fucked
• Columbia87: I've never had a virgin
• CuteBiGuy: no way
• CuteBiGuy: you seem like a virgin magnet
• Columbia87: You are so sweet!
• Columbia87: Virgins look at my cock and ask to come back later
• CuteBiGuy: why...scare me...how big?
• Columbia87: Not all that long, just a big mushroom head - 7"x6" on a good day
• CuteBiGuy: me too
• CuteBiGuy: cool
• Columbia87: a good day lasts for 6 hours
• CuteBiGuy: wow
• CuteBiGuy: me too...keep my hardon for a long time
• Columbia87: Why are you an anal virgin, zzz?
• CuteBiGuy: well...you are warm and open...i would imagine you to be an amazing top
• CuteBiGuy: i'm married
• Columbia87: Is there a sense in which that answers the question?
• Columbia87: Risk reduction?
• CuteBiGuy: lol - someone is testing my intellect here (i like, i like)
• Columbia87: oops - my philosophy major is showing
• CuteBiGuy: as a philosophy major you'll appreciate this
• CuteBiGuy: woops
• CuteBiGuy: typed that simultaneously
• CuteBiGuy: i am afraid that i will love getting fucked so much
• Columbia87: That's why I don't do cocaine
• CuteBiGuy: it will render me impotent at home with my wife
• Columbia87: Dude - they make a pill for that!
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• CuteBiGuy: never thought of that
• Columbia87: I use it to keep hard inside a *squirmy face* condom
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• Columbia87: where do you think those 6 hours come from?
• CuteBiGuy: so are you here in NYC yet?
• Columbia87: I'll be there Weds to Weds (unless I can find more old chums whose  hospitality to abuse)
• CuteBiGuy: explaining the meaning of your cock's existence to it??
• CuteBiGuy: wouldn't that make it stand up to fulfill it's destiny?
• Columbia87: to what? Cocks determine the meaning of existence
• CuteBiGuy: (oops there i go...shamelssly flirting with you)
• Columbia87: flirt away, straight boy
• CuteBiGuy: no....cocks are a part of the body that MAY determine  the meaning of existence in some individuals
• CuteBiGuy: hey...no need to be insulting!! "straight boy"
• Columbia87: I never second guess my cock - as I was just grandiosely philosophizing to another chatter moments ago...
• Columbia87: Use your cock as your compass, and it will lead you north of your dreams
• CuteBiGuy: now you know
• CuteBiGuy: that sounds superficial but i have come to accept it as true
• CuteBiGuy: after my best friend found his soulmate at the gym
• CuteBiGuy: it started with a hook-up....ie gotta have that chemistry
• Columbia87: I thought it sounded pretty fucking profound, myself
• CuteBiGuy: mmm
• CuteBiGuy: love it when you talk dirty to me
• Columbia87: Chemistry is huge - It takes two. I'm a firm believer that nobody is good in bed alone.
• CuteBiGuy: unless the batteries in the toys are fresh
• Columbia87: Speaking as a top, that would never have crossed my mind
• CuteBiGuy: mmmm there you go again
• CuteBiGuy: do you want to fuck me?? or am i imagining that harddrive bumping against my leg?
• Columbia87: Honestly, I'd need to see your face
• CuteBiGuy: i know...i really wasn't coming her to tease you...
• Columbia87: My cock informs me that it's all about the face
• Columbia87: and the adoration ;-)
• CuteBiGuy: i swear...i just thought you deserved a compliment
• Columbia87: Thank you again - I really appreciate hearing that.
• CuteBiGuy: i'm sure there were many others
• CuteBiGuy: have a good night....i will j/o thinking about you fucking  me
• CuteBiGuy: really tenderly
• Columbia87: If you'd like to think about me fucking you harder...
• CuteBiGuy: and you will find alot of nice guys to have fun with while  you're here, i'm sure
• Columbia87: email me a pic, and maybe we can hookup next week ;-)
• CuteBiGuy: i DO like the idea of you fucking me harder
• CuteBiGuy: that's the virgin's fantasy
• CuteBiGuy: to be taken from fearful to hungry in one night
• Columbia87: I know it goes against the current fashion, but my favorite agenda is to *first* slam-fuck you into a new headspace, and *then* go for the more rhythmic lovey ass-tease stuff
• CuteBiGuy: mmmmmm
• CuteBiGuy: and what have you found the effect is?
• Columbia87: after an hour of BAM BAM BAM, you leave your head and go into your body
• CuteBiGuy: and then....
• CuteBiGuy: ?
• Columbia87: I'm talking look-ma-no-hands-tell-the-neighbors-to-get-their-own-trick slam fucking
• CuteBiGuy: but don't you cum well before an hour?
• Columbia87: then, while your ass is still quivering, but now totally surrendered to my cock,
• Columbia87: I'll go so slow you'll beg - beg - beg
• CuteBiGuy: yes??
• CuteBiGuy: oh fuck!!!!!!
• CuteBiGuy: because that beggin turns you on
• CuteBiGuy: to know that you've achieved total control over the other guy
• Columbia87: first rhythmically - massaging your prostate with the ridge on the head of my cock...
• Columbia87: No, because denying it turns me on
• CuteBiGuy: me denying it?
• Columbia87: Me denying your request to go faster
• CuteBiGuy: wow
• Columbia87: I'll hold my cock head against your prostate - maybe for a second,  maybe for 20
• CuteBiGuy: i knew you would be a mental top
• Columbia87: and without warning, thrust it all the way to the hilt, as if I'd never stopped slam-fucking
• CuteBiGuy: i'm totally shocked and overwhelmed then right?
• CuteBiGuy: unable to speak
• Columbia87: then stop, and guiding it with my hand, just tease your sphincter, slowly,  sweetly with just the glans
• Columbia87: plop - blurp - plop - blurp
• CuteBiGuy: yes
• Columbia87: this is when Randall said "I see stars!"
• CuteBiGuy: wow
• CuteBiGuy: unbelievable
• Columbia87: I'll flip you, and rotate you, and position you, and guide you, and teach  you
• CuteBiGuy: and you can keep up the slam fucking for an hour?
• Columbia87: If you're small enough for me to lift, my cock will never come out of your ass
• CuteBiGuy: teach me??
• Columbia87: After an hour, my orthopedist gets on my case
• CuteBiGuy: wow wow wow
• CuteBiGuy: i had no idea
• Columbia87: My favorite position - but it only works with smaller guys - is with him  on his belly,
• Columbia87: me kneeling behind him,
• Columbia87: with my arm around his chest, grasping his opposite shoulder
• Columbia87: shit - I'm trembling just to write it
• Columbia87: Lifting his whole body up and down on and off of my cock
• CuteBiGuy: i'm trembling with you, man
• Columbia87: man, that sends me to Saturn
• CuteBiGuy: jesus
• CuteBiGuy: you really like to be in control of every sensation
• CuteBiGuy: and subsequently every thought
• Columbia87: When I'm on top -- which is 92% of the time
• CuteBiGuy: i am mezmerized
• Columbia87: There is so much more to anal sex than a dick and a hole --
• Columbia87: Your sphincter was the first muscle you had to control solely for the approval of your parents
• CuteBiGuy: yes
• Columbia87: Letting go of that control is like having a new infancy
• CuteBiGuy: at the hands of the right man
• Columbia87: They say gay men go through a second adolescence when they come out - and that's true, but
• Columbia87: I think it overlooks the more profound importance of the second infancy
• CuteBiGuy: yes....i agree
• Columbia87: And you get to reexperience that every time you get fucked
• CuteBiGuy: and what about the first time?
• Columbia87: What about the first time?
• CuteBiGuy: it must be an even more powerful experience
• CuteBiGuy: wow...now i really want you!!!!
• Columbia87: It's huge.  That's why you can't become a virgin again.
• Columbia87: that's why there's a word for what you can't become again.
• CuteBiGuy: you are able to transport through sex to another level of experience
• Columbia87: Precisely the point.
• CuteBiGuy: unfucking-believable if you excuse the pun
• CuteBiGuy: i feel like you've already fucked my mind
• Columbia87: Thank you very much.
• CuteBiGuy: or at least created a deep desire for you within myself
• Columbia87: It's an honor that you allowed me to.
• CuteBiGuy: no....it was unavoidable
• CuteBiGuy: you came in as a strong man
• CuteBiGuy: the yeilding was pleasurable
• Columbia87: I try to recapture the exhaustion of dancing in context of lovemaking
• CuteBiGuy: it was as if you could push forecfully through my fears
• CuteBiGuy: in order to pull me to a new place
• Columbia87: (No, I don't think I used that term, "lovemaking," too hastily - I think too many people  minimize the emotional significance of "casual" sexual encounters.
• Columbia87: Exactly
• Columbia87: To pull you there with me
• CuteBiGuy: mmmmmm
• CuteBiGuy: beautiful
• Columbia87: Hey, zzz - do you mind if I save this chat and put it on my website?
• CuteBiGuy: i would imagine the experience of "pulling" a virgin "out"  would be a powerful experience for you too
• CuteBiGuy: not at all
• Columbia87: I hope to find out sometime.
• CuteBiGuy: jesus
• CuteBiGuy: do you know how much i want you now?
• Columbia87: But if you've been playing with toys, you may have already gotten past the pain obstacle.
• CuteBiGuy: i am warm and flushed and just and to express affection and appreciation for you
• Columbia87: Do you know how much I love to be wanted?
• CuteBiGuy: no, no toys
• CuteBiGuy: i didn't know that
• CuteBiGuy: i have a deep need to yield to a man that i adore
• Columbia87: I'm feeling it too - I'm energized over my whole skin surface
• CuteBiGuy: wow
• CuteBiGuy: i'm glad...i felt selfish
• CuteBiGuy: as if you had fucked me and had been doing all the "work"
• CuteBiGuy: to facilitate my growth
• CuteBiGuy: which i will worship you for
• Columbia87: After I practically raped you, throwing you around, putting you exactly  where I wanted you, taking you completely and settling for nothing short of surrender,
• CuteBiGuy: rape is a strong word
• Columbia87: after all that, *you* felt selfish? That's what's amazing about sex.
• CuteBiGuy: forcefully liberated is better
• Columbia87: too strong a word - because it would have stopped instantly if you had  resisted
• CuteBiGuy: no it wouldn't
• CuteBiGuy: nice to say
• CuteBiGuy: but we both know it wouldn't have stopped instantly
• Columbia87: In serious control scenes, I give a safeword that will stop everything
• CuteBiGuy: the energy pushed away all limits
• CuteBiGuy: i would be afraid to use that word
• CuteBiGuy: but without it...you would keep pushing, pulling, dragging me towards the goal
• CuteBiGuy: which is what i want
• Columbia87: But my point was that even while I was doing to you only exactly what *I* craved, you felt such an overwhelming sense of you that you thought *you*  were being selfish.
• CuteBiGuy: yes
• Columbia87: oops - "sense of joy" is what I thought I meant
• CuteBiGuy: because as the object that is controlled....
• CuteBiGuy: my only desire is to give you pleasure
• CuteBiGuy: in return for the structure and discovery that you have brought to me
• CuteBiGuy: if i am unsure of your pleasure then it is a selfish  experience
• Columbia87: If you seriously want to get together, email me a clear facepic.
• CuteBiGuy: and now that i am calming down....i want more opportunity to express my thankfulness
• CuteBiGuy: i do
• CuteBiGuy: do you?
• CuteBiGuy: (and i want more)
• Columbia87: This has been incredibly intense - I want more too. But my cock gets to  decide.
• CuteBiGuy: i want to be forced to yeild to you
• CuteBiGuy: i want you to take me....
• Columbia87: send me a pic, zzz
• CuteBiGuy: ok
• CuteBiGuy: last thought
• Columbia87: I promise the pic does not go with this story.
• CuteBiGuy: i want you to take me physically
• CuteBiGuy: throw away the physical pain
• CuteBiGuy: (through the strength of your will)
• CuteBiGuy: and the insistance of your cock
• CuteBiGuy: and then bring me up to a place
• CuteBiGuy: where i can experience total joy and joyfully sit at your feet
• CuteBiGuy: in adoration
• Columbia87: My email is columbia87@gay.com
• CuteBiGuy: ******@*****.com
• CuteBiGuy: i can tell you have to go
• Columbia87: When will I get the pic?
• CuteBiGuy: thank you so  much
• CuteBiGuy: hmmm
• Columbia87: Be thinking about logistics -- where we can meet, your time contraints
• CuteBiGuy: i can meet on sunday
• CuteBiGuy: not here...do you have anywhere?
• Columbia87: I'll be staying with a series of friends
• Columbia87: I have a Sunday afternoon croquet match ("British colonial weenie lawn sports", as the invitation describes it)
• CuteBiGuy: we can work it out
• Columbia87: maybe evening
• CuteBiGuy: evening won't work
• CuteBiGuy: tues afternoon?
• Columbia87: Good
• CuteBiGuy: how long will we need?
• Columbia87: 2 hours minimum - 3 or 4 would be better. You're going to need some quality cuddle time afterwards.
• Columbia87: But realize that this depends on how my cock feels about your pic.
• CuteBiGuy: i know
• CuteBiGuy: but i don't think that'll be an issue
• CuteBiGuy: and you will be totally in control the whole time?
• Columbia87: If that's what you want and need. Your safeword is "*SAFEWORD WITHHELD FOR MY SAFETY*".
• CuteBiGuy: cool
• CuteBiGuy: i think you will have to be somewhat gentle to start...but  you'll figure it out as it happens
• Columbia87: It might help if you tried a toy or vegetable a couple of times - gently
• CuteBiGuy: ok
• Columbia87: just to get the hang of relaxing your sphincter - because it can hurt me if  you squeeze it too hard reflexively
• CuteBiGuy: suggestions to start?
• Columbia87: a dildo, or a buttplug, or a cucumber or zucchini
• CuteBiGuy: just put it in?
• CuteBiGuy: and leave it there?
• Columbia87: Love yourself - have some fun with it
• CuteBiGuy: or is it important to move it around?
• CuteBiGuy: ok
• Columbia87: But not too hard -- I don't want you develop any tiny tears that wouldn't be  healed in time for our rendevous
• CuteBiGuy: ok....but aren't you going to tear me?
• CuteBiGuy: with the slam fucking?
• Columbia87: Probably a little, but you'll want to be untorn when we start
• CuteBiGuy: ok
• CuteBiGuy: i hate to admit it...but even the idea of you tearing me is exciting
• Columbia87: I understand
• CuteBiGuy: good i don't
• Columbia87: lol
• CuteBiGuy: lol
• CuteBiGuy: god i hate to leave you
• CuteBiGuy: i feel like im in the presence of a master
• Columbia87: That's very flattering.
• CuteBiGuy: true
• Columbia87: Call me Murray
• CuteBiGuy: *NAME WITHHELD BY REQUEST*
• Columbia87: It has been a great pleasure to make your acquaintance, *NAME WITHHELD*.
• CuteBiGuy: me too
• CuteBiGuy: thank you so much
• Columbia87: When can I expect your pic?
• Columbia87: When I get it, I'll email you my cellphone number.
• CuteBiGuy: i will try to take it within the next day
• Columbia87: Thank you.
• CuteBiGuy: i just want to kiss your feet and thank you
• CuteBiGuy: for opening my mind
• Columbia87: It's been a pleasure
• CuteBiGuy: thank you
• CuteBiGuy: bye
• Columbia87: Goodnight *NAME WITHHELD*.  Call me when you get my number.
• CuteBiGuy: ok
• CuteBiGuy: thanks again
• Columbia87: Goodnight.

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